I am blessed and thankful to celebrate another year of life!
As I reflect on 41, it was full of ups and downs, a few more downs than ups this year, but the biggest up was that I was here to live my 41st year - right?!? This year brought greater loss, anniversaries of loss and a few more challenges, but I also celebrated some amazing moments, as well!
As I reflect on 41, it was full of ups and downs, a few more downs than ups this year, but the biggest up was that I was here to live my 41st year - right?!? This year brought greater loss, anniversaries of loss and a few more challenges, but I also celebrated some amazing moments, as well!
As I reflect on the last year, I can't help but reflect on this day three years ago - this was the day I had my post-op visit to receive the pathology report from my surgery. The cancer was not contained, we found evidence of cancer in a lymph node....blah...blah...blah...radiation...chemo...more chemo...hair loss...nausea...exhaustion...clinical trial. It's difficult to remember what life was like BC (before cancer). It's hard to remember how you celebrated birthdays when you never gave a thought to not having another one - I was young and took the the gift of life a little for granted.
After losing my mom in April, some days, I just want to curl up, cry and wallow in the sadness of loss. While I suffered much loss during 41, I learned from each of every one of these experiences. I continue to be reminded that the anticipation of hard things is much more difficult than actually going through them and I can do hard things!Some prefer to ignore their birthdays, but I will celebrate and celebrate big and I look forward to conquering more hard things in the next year! Cheers to 42!
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