Mom, I am so proud of you!

On April 21, 2014 at 4:01 p.m., my mom lost her courageous battle with breast cancer.  The last 6 months have been a roller coaster of fighting, survival and trying to soak up every minute of life.  I read an article recently that included a statement that sums up my current state of mind so well "The finality of it. When she was sick, at least things kept changing. She felt better, or worse. It was a good time to talk, or it wasn't. Things happened. Now nothing is happening. This is it.”  (Source: The Unmothered)  This perfectly sums up what I have been thinking and feeling over the last several weeks.  I have lost so much, but gained so much at the same time.  I have learned a great deal about myself through this process and even more about my mom.  She was stronger than she ever gave herself credit for and I am so proud of hard she has fought over the last 22 months.  

I have created a bond with my dear little brother that will only get stronger as we navigate this journey without the two most important people in our life - our parents.  I don't know what adventures await us, but I am looking forward to the ride!  I will find a way to keep putting one foot in front of the other and live life because this is it, but I miss you mom...